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Posted by Bamboomz on December 11, 2004, at 21:29:39
I don't know what to do anymore. I am so sick of feeling confused and weepy. All I think about is how crappy I feel. All I talk about is how crappy I feel. My loving and supportive boyfriend has now turned into an annoyed and sarcastic boyfriend who tries to escape my bleak, boring world as often as possible. So now, I spend my time trying not to bum everyone out and I keep my sad thoughts to myself. Unfortunately, this make me feel even worse. I usually don't write much on this web-site. I love to read what everyone else has to say. It makes me feel a lot better and not so alone. I am afraid that whatever I write will just sound like blah blah blah poor me. The usual crap, but hey, maybe this will help. No-one has to read it if they don't want to and then I can just vent through typing. Which is kind of what I'm doing right now. So here I go...
I am suffering from post-partum depression. My son is 16 months old and I have been going in and out of mild, short bouts of anxiety and depression since he was born. But for the past 3 months, I have been feeling worse and worse. About a month ago, I went to see my doctor who gave me effexor. I took it for two days, freaked out, then threw it in the garbage. Since then, I have been drinking herbal teas like crazy, and have been also taking a herb called Rhodiola. I have not been feeling much better. I am now beginning to experience migraines all the time as well as waves of nausea. Fun, fun, fun. I am going in for a psychiatric evaluation on Moday and I am kind of afraid of the whole thing. I guess it will be good for someone to finally say "Yes, you are depressed, you need to take this or that and you need to be in some sort of therapy." But I am afraid that they may also think that I am just wasting their time and I need to just deal with stress better and stop feeling bad for myself. I guess we will just see.
The reason I am going on about this on the relationship board is because I am feeling pretty bad about my boyfriend not giving me the support I feel I need right now. Is this something that is quite commen with people suffering from different mental illnesses? Probably. I guess it is hard for others to be able to understand how you feel and to give you what you need at the moment. Right now, I wish he was holding me and telling me positive things about us and our life as opposed to hiding in the back room, drinking wine and talking on the phone to his buddies.
O.K. well that's it for my vent. I don't really feel better right now but at least I got some stuff off of my chest.
Posted by justyourlaugh on December 11, 2004, at 23:00:35
In reply to feeling lonely, posted by Bamboomz on December 11, 2004, at 21:29:39
oh wow..
first off i hope your doc did full complete blood work before prescibing any meds...
i am wondering if your thyroid is at play here?
giving birth is a risk factor...total eruption to the body.
please vent..
and fight for your right to know all about your own body..even if no one else "seems" to care..
we do here..
vent vent vent.
j
Posted by smokeymadison on December 12, 2004, at 0:03:25
In reply to feeling lonely, posted by Bamboomz on December 11, 2004, at 21:29:39
i am sorry that your boyfriend is not being as supportive as he should be. my boyfriend tries to deal with me, tries to comfort me and a lot of the time i spit it back in his face. what i mean is, there is no one else that can fix you but you. you need to get somes meds and some therapy--don't be scared of it--there really isn't that much to be scared of--and work this out. he should be involved after a bit, after you have established some ground, but the beginning has to be you. i am sorry if i sound harsh. i have spent years trying to get comfort and help from other people and only gotten more and more depressed.
the truth is, there is nothing my boyfriend can say or do that is going to make me better. the fact that he is here is what counts. it sounds like you might want to include your boyfriend in therapy after you have made some progress. and don't worry about venting here, we all do!!! i wish you the best of luck for your appointment Monday--be honest and open with whoever it is you are seeing and go from there.
SM
Posted by 64bowtie on December 12, 2004, at 12:26:15
In reply to feeling lonely, posted by Bamboomz on December 11, 2004, at 21:29:39
Please 'see' what must change in your life for it to become re-righted to the upright.
Please 'say' what that change process will look like.
Please 'do' that change process; we're here cheering you on....Toooo often we picture that change means loss; loss of harmony; loss of status; loss of mystique; and perhaps loss of self. Instead, add new stuff by upgrading the old stuff. Its OK to suspend the 'belief filters' that have clouded the picture and failed to help us find peace, freedom and happiness.
Rod
PS: suspend means to hold in limbo till a later date when more information clarifies your indecision about them; those pesky 'belief filters'.....
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