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Posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 11:29:12
It's amazing to me, incredible, that I can feel so strongly about a man I've never seen more than an hour at a time, and really know so practically little about. It's incredible that the love of a lifetime can be a virtual stranger, but not .. someone you've never made love with, never kissed, never held . and yet a bond is created, a bond that's almost physical, yet not, not at all ... it's the first time in my life I've ever really felt Spirit. Really thought, knew in my heart, that it exists.
I'm so fortunate.
Posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 11:39:03
In reply to Love, posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 11:29:12
Sometimes, my mind and I get along really well .. what my mind processes, is beautiful.
The next moment, everything is seen hurtful and ugly, overwhelmingly painful.
My mind.
It's so unfair, it won't let me be. I want love more than anything, and I have it, from many, and I give it to many as well.
But my mind is expert, expert I tell you, at creating and keeping isolation and loneliness.
The demon is me, and I can't seem to run fast enough.
Is a toke before eight a bad thing?
Posted by katherpoo1 on April 4, 2005, at 11:00:36
In reply to Re: Love, posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 11:39:03
A toke is weed right...? I am not familar with the terminology ;)
Ahh, the power of the mind. We can will ourselves powerfully. That does not, by the way, make you a demon. What you wrote in your first post was incredibly beautiful, and in this post you seem almost like a different person. What changed?
--K
Posted by Miss Honeychurch on April 4, 2005, at 13:25:12
In reply to Love, posted by Susan47 on April 3, 2005, at 11:29:12
Susan,
There's nothing like idealizing something we can never have. Can you truly call what you have for this guy love or just infatuation which is pleasurable to feed?
Posted by Susan47 on April 5, 2005, at 0:26:35
In reply to Re: Love » Susan47, posted by Miss Honeychurch on April 4, 2005, at 13:25:12
Absolutely not infatuation, sorry.
I know it's tempting to read your own interpretations into what others say. M-hm. So I understand your query. Because love like I feel, can definitely be seen from the outside as infatuation. But the feeling is not infatuation. Because I've been that in the past as well. But no, love comes from inside me. The other person doesn't create that because of who they are. They just are. And I choose certain people to love because of who they are. I don't have to know them intimately in order to love anybody. It's possible, it's real and it's really beautiful. Painful at times, you know, when I thought I needed to have him too. And of course that would've been lovely, absolutely wonderful, in fact, I know that. For me, anyway. But I don't need it. I can live without him. I just love him, that's all.
Posted by Susan47 on April 5, 2005, at 0:35:44
In reply to Re: Love » Susan47, posted by katherpoo1 on April 4, 2005, at 11:00:36
I have been trying to reply for ten minutes and cannot for the life of me cobble together a worthy reply.
I don't know.
Posted by Susan47 on April 5, 2005, at 13:32:12
In reply to Re: Love » Susan47, posted by katherpoo1 on April 4, 2005, at 11:00:36
Spirit doesn't really exist.
That's the thing that my mind finally was able to get through to me.
And that's the only thing that saved me, really.
Was believing in Spirit.
So, boink.Boink.
This is the end of the thread.
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